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Depression | Short Film

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I usually talk about beauty and fashion on this channel. Which are obviously topics and things that I love. However, recently I have really been thinking. For a while now, I have not been proud of the content I have been posting on social media. Social media has become an outlet for people to broadcast their "perfect" life. I know, I am completely guilty of this as well. But through this video, I want to show something real for once. Its not all about cute sweaters or urban decay makeup. Depression is real. I am so so proud of how this turned out. I hope I was able to help at least one person out there. You are enough and you are not alone. ************************************************ Support me on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/Courtneyraine_ Follow me on Instagram: Courtneyraine_ https://instagram.com/courtneyraine_/ ************************************************ For Business Inquiries: [email protected] ************************************************ A huge thank you to Alyssa Morris for collaborating with me to create this short film. Stop by her Insta and say HI! @_justlyssa_ WARNING: If you are easily triggered, do not watch this. There is no harmful content. Just a girl, going through her day. If you are struggling, please call the suicide-prevention hotline! 1-800-273-8255. This video is to solely create awareness for suicide-prevention month Thanks for watching! :)
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vicky onokoko (19 hours ago)
Been depressed for 5 years now and I still don’t know why I didn’t end it already
Mystery Star (1 day ago)
This is so true This is so right But at the same time It’s wrong Nobody wants Depression, people feel pity for you, they just dont know
mylie kamdyn (1 day ago)
LeAndra Amy (1 day ago)
I’m suicidal...I’m bullied at school...I cuss and everyone hates me. I tell nobody because I have no one to tell. I have deep depression. And it’s not hard to figure out that I don’t need friends
Luis Vazquez (1 day ago)
I once pass through it ,however seeking God and having purpose is what truly drives me ,in this life you might have tribulations but remember that when the night is at its darkest it's because soon the sun will raise . 😁
uh hey im 12 and im scared i might have this does anyone have advice
Random Cat Lady (1 day ago)
Meditate,and NEVER cut yourself.
Nolan Thibeault (1 day ago)
This video is the most accurate I've ever seen.
twan Iou (2 days ago)
i love this
Lexi Williams (2 days ago)
This is me go to school and fill nothing no pain but you know that you what to fill something
Peter Hernandez (2 days ago)
How can i kill myself without pain ? pls answer
Swapnil Upadhyay (2 days ago)
Continuous academic failure despite being a bright student has got me hard, I don't even how past 2 years have passed, the only good memory I have is when I topped in my secondary school(10th) final exams after graduating I took science in higher secondary,everyone had high expectations from me and the decision was my own, I like science I still do but it's like the spirit is lost, the rat race to get good rank and grades has destroyed my eagerness and curiosity,schools don't promote learning but race, and no matter what you have to win,even if it takes toll on your health both mental and physical.I am still hanging in here, hoping for the best.
grace silaen (3 days ago)
Steven Johnston (3 days ago)
I can't sleep well sometimes I sleep much about 10 hours! !
Steven Johnston (3 days ago)
It's been 5 mouths now, my life sucks. My doctor give me Benzodiazepine etc etc it can't help either. My best friend said that come on Steve you can be better than this, read the bible and go to church. And yet it doesn't work for me, wtf is wrong with me? Why me? I'm tired of it seriously, should I die?
cold breeze (4 days ago)
this is what I am feeling right now
DeXteRitY EVO (4 days ago)
Toni (4 days ago)
the key to depression and other problems are nothing but yourself, it's not how changes outside effects inside, it's the change inside that effects what happens outside.
Toni (3 days ago)
+typical cookies i mentioned the root of the problem not the side leafs that grows afterwards.
typical cookies (3 days ago)
Or chemical imbalances ...
So Lo (4 days ago)
I'm a liar.
Pictures L.C. (4 days ago)
I felt this video more than anything...
Mochi'sMonday (4 days ago)
When people pretend for attention that they have anxiety or depression, its almost afensive bc there r people out there diagnosed or suffering from depression or anxiety disorders and knowing that some r just faking it, hurts.
ur skin isn’t paper, don’t cut it, ur size,ur body isn’t a book, don’t judge it ur life isn’t a movie, don’t end it Whoever who is reading this is beautiful no matter what!Stay strong💖💪
Min Suga (5 days ago)
this is just so relatable
Black & blue (5 days ago)
Everything is perfect but still something inside bothers and idk anymore. Just like I don't care anymore.
Tiki Badfish (5 days ago)
If you seek the spirit realm then find.
Analiese Natividad (5 days ago)
Already crying 30 seconds in......
Eagle Dreamer (6 days ago)
This explains me so well I'm going through it all day all night I need help but no one can hear it I try to act fine but then comes night and then I feel like everyone hates me my mom my dad my friends so I cry for like 20 minutes and it never helps so I cut my self over and over and over so I curl up in a ball and cr and cry...
Tee Wilson (6 days ago)
Listen..... I'm in middle school and im an 7th grader and sometimes when I'm sad and shy I don't just feel miserable and careless I suck it up and when I have sad thoughts the next I try to forget about those thoughts and move on. Sometimes in life you have forget about the bad things that happened too you and move forward.
love my dog alley (9 days ago)
This is exactly how it feels. I'm only 12 and I have depression and cut stay strong guys
LittleGayPotato (9 days ago)
Only one person has made me feel actual happiness in 4 years...
Guess I have depression ...just wish someone would actually see it through all the fake smiles
Waqar Ghani (10 days ago)
1:24 press the premium or high octane and hit the gas everything will fine except this is not very civilized way to relieve your self out of stress. If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve your turn long after they are gone,    And so hold on when there is nothing in you Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’ Nice Short Story, Let me quote you one you might like, There was a woman who went to a hospital for routine checkup of a swallowing portion like pimple so she had few tests, Afterwards doctor asked her that report says she has cancer and won't live any longer then two months and prescribed her to get hospitalized although it was impossible to treat her through medicine by physician and it was too late to go for the surgery. So She Decided to go home instead, and go to her room lock the door after a while when she got so worried and stressed she started rubbing her wound and start saying O God Help Me , O God Help me and most of her time she started doing this way , Two months later a friend of her knocked her door and she opened the door and her friend asked her i came to see you but you are looking fine when youve treated your surgery, she got surprised looked in the mirror and there was no clot. So she pick the reports and went to the Doctor and Doc said who did your surgery she said no one so the take her tests again and doctor said there was no chance in that please let me know what you did, and she told him that she just rubbed that clot and said O God Help Me. And he did help her, Do keep in touch with your friends and family. May God Be With You. Assalam o Alikum
SuperZombiepimp (10 days ago)
This was dead on I'm just tried of being alone I just want someone to love been so unhappy for years im starting to think this is all there is and just end it cause when I do come out people don't take it serious
StellaWolf36 Kitty (10 days ago)
I have depression....I didn't think I would, but I do. My brother gets mad at me whenever I start talking about depression so I can't tell my family. I don't want to be treated any different and I don't want them to worry. I feel like I'm just like mist. I don't recognize myself and my name means nothing to me and it's just.... terrible.
Victoria Kennedy (10 days ago)
So now I don't have a mother My mother gave up on me
Karolina Kim (11 days ago)
I have really bad depression and got out of inpatient yesterday after 8 days stay with still feeling suicidal. Now, after just day, my parents are driving me crazy because they don't know how depression and feels like and they are about to send me back to hospital that I got out yesterday. I don't know why single people in the world doesn't understand me at all.
Anna’s Hut (11 days ago)
but when people say “I care” they truly only care once you are dead and saying I didn’t see the signs 😭
Ayla Gabriella (12 days ago)
I just feel that the reasons I'm depressed are stupid and that's why I can't talk to anyone about it, I feel like nobody is going to understand. I once told my parents and they told me it's just because you're a teen and they didn't really seem to care, I really want to know if I'm depressed or not but I can't, even if I went to a therapist I will feel stupid because the reasons wouldn't be that much of a problem I guess and nobody will take it seriously 💔💔
Aiden Johnston (13 days ago)
Nothing will ever get better , people say it will get better but in reality it doesnt
The speech, editing, pacing, no clichey, and maybe storytelling are thing you need to work on to improve your movies/short flims.
Shadow (13 days ago)
This video makes me feel less alone... I thought I was the only one experiencing this 💔😩
Antoni Timofey (14 days ago)
Do you realise that people are în war right now? Wtf you don't even go to work/school i bet.
the gamer perry (14 days ago)
I just feel left out in my friendship group, every time I wake up I suddenly just have a wave if sadness overcome me and I feel so self conscious I feel like no one understands me😭😭
are you serious (15 days ago)
How can I get the Captions ??
Kimi Yamamoto (15 days ago)
I have depression. I have like 4 friends that I know basically what I’m going through and it took a bit of explaining for them to actually believe me. Apparently I’m so good at pretending to be happy that no one noticed when I stopped actually being happy. Even the closest friends I have didn’t believe me until they saw my scars. Until I told them everything. I tried to explain but I realized they didn’t fully understand and that they were going through their own issues. So I just don’t talk about myself. It’s better to act like you’re ok than to try to explain it to someone who doesn’t understand and put more pressure in their lives. If you feel like this too, you should talk to a counselor or therapist or just someone who you know will take the time to listen. Preferably someone trained for that stuff. It helps.
Kimi Yamamoto (15 days ago)
This one is so accurate. I’ve watched several depression short films and all of them seem to be situational depression like being bullied at school and then trying to commit suicide. Im not remotely an expert but I think this is just clinical depression, as a mental illness rather than being situational. This is definitely more accurate in terms of my own life.
big chungus gussy (15 days ago)
I used to be so happy and I don’t know what happened. My living situation got worse and I felt like no one ever wanted to hung out with me because I can’t think of the last time someone wanted to. I lost my closest friends, A few family members pasts. And honestly I just feel so lonely. Sometimes I think about death but never attempted. if anyone has a website for me to seek help, please tell me. I’d appreciate it.
Kind Gottes (15 days ago)
Don't kill yourself. Jesus loves you and he has a meaning for your life. He is always by your side and wants to take all your burdens off of you... just ask him for help and he will help you for sure. 100% Jesus says in Matthew 11:28 ''Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.'' and in John 10:10 ''The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.'' Don't let your life be stolen from the darkness that surrounds you. Don't listen to the lies of the devil. Because: ''He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him.'' (John 8:44) But Jesus is the light of life and the truth :) ''Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” (John 8:12) The darkness will vanish if you ask Jesus for help. Because in Jesus is no darkness at all, only light, the truth, peace and love. He will fight all your battles for you, because he loves you so, so much. Please don't harm yourself. Your life matters a lot.
stella ok (15 days ago)
Didn't really know what I was feeling so I just looked up depression and well, this is exactly what I'm going through😔😔
Kinda Emo Trash (16 days ago)
I am lying to my parents that I am sick so I don't have to go to school..Well I am-mentally and I am scared to tell them so I'll go so far that yesterday I drank a pill for pain, even if I was completely fine :// P.s. my english is bad sorry
bj fans (16 days ago)
YouTube was, and still is my turning point to how I feel inside... all the mistakes. I wear black, and I'm annoyed that all these girls are DEPRESSED but when I got depressed I was wearing Black and I listened to things that make me more sad like this. me sitting alone thinking about how shitty life is, then taking off the headphones and seeing how boring it is too.
Miss Chloe Jenkins (16 days ago)
I wish I could just go to sleep one night and not wake back up :'(
blqhshツ (16 days ago)
This described me I thought I was going thru sadness.and I won't say it to parents BC they will literally say just pray to God and everything would pass .
hot Cheetos 1234 (17 days ago)
Wtf accurate
hot Cheetos 1234 (17 days ago)
I want someone to talk to but I’m embarrassed and people think I’m doing it for attention
hot Cheetos 1234 (17 days ago)
Why am I like this why do people get what they want n I just don’t
gatcha lover (17 days ago)
I have depression and I'm only 11 and sometimes I cry myself to sleep and I even started cutting then my parents found out and sent me to a mental hospital the a couple of months later (right now) I'm back in the mental hospital for the same exact reason and depression sucks and it doesn't help that there are people that don't care at all (my ex) and it just makes it worse but I just trying and fighting my depression and talking to my friends about it so for everyone else just keep fighting it will get better soon I'm still fighting
HeyHey (17 days ago)
When I told my 2 best friends that I have depression they were like "what? How?!you're always so happy!" That's the point No one sees depression which is a good and a bad thing at the same time...
Tereza Frdlíková (17 days ago)
People at my school make fun of me because they don’t know what its like they just assume ,,oh her crush didn’t text her back or whatever😂” because thats how my classmates feel when they “say they have depression” and nobody at our school is talking depression seriously
CancerGaming PH (19 days ago)
Anyone can help me i cant take it anymore.. :(
Rameesa Arif (19 days ago)
I request all of you to learn Islam.I believe that there will be solution of your depression.It's a humble request with love.
itz_ Adamaris (19 days ago)
idek if im depressed
denmark badeo (20 days ago)
Leah Ethridge (20 days ago)
Im only 11 but I have depression everyone thinks I'm ok. I hurt myself. "I'm fine" I say everyday. Everytime I talk to people I put a big smile on my face but I leave and cry. I cry and cry and cry. I get caught crying and say "I watched something sad" or " I stubbed my toe" I don't wanna live in pain anymore. My wrist is in pain from cutting.
Luna Smith (20 days ago)
Can some body pls tell wat fase of depression this is ??😓😔
Hirjeta Sinani (21 days ago)
dafuq i have depression (doctor proved) and actual this is a little bit dramatic.Yeah it's like kinda that but i can be happy someday too.I am not afraid or even scard of the question "how are you?" like i can lie but i can also say the truth that i feel today good.It's just cringe for me...
Lana O'Leary (21 days ago)
I’ve never related to anything in my entire life. This brought tears to my eyes because of how accurate it was.💔
Kristian Weider (21 days ago)
I don’t want to tell anyone, but I feel like I need to.
Onyx Nebula Plays (12 hours ago)
I just want you to know you are an amazing person have a great day, if you ever need to talk to me my twitter is @onyxnebulaplays or on this channel
maha dewi widyajayanti (22 days ago)
Kristine Angela Sadsad (22 days ago)
this is how i feel right now, im crying while listening and watching this😢
The sound of her voice, is so soothing.
Menna Ali (23 days ago)
Story of my life
Akash's Singh (23 days ago)
Life is good 😁😁😁 deep down sucks
Kaden Goddard (23 days ago)
This is exactly how I feel right now. Almost everyday is sad, but then I start feeling happy again for a day and think it was just a little faze of sadness. And then it comes back. And I deny it all.
Maame Yaa (23 days ago)
My depression story....I’m insecure about everything, low body image, I overthink everything, I feel worthless, I’m insecure about my future, I’m very open minded and because of that I get misunderstood most of the time, I don’t even know who I am anymore..... This is just a vague description of what my depression feels like....I don’t seek for help because, no one pays attention to mental health in my country, I don’t want anyone to belittle my feelings or make my feelings look invalid, I don’t want anyone to use my feelings against me, I don’t want to be vulnerable, I don’t want to be a burden to anyone and I don’t want pity from anyone.....also I know whatever I need to know about not feeling worthless blah blah blah....andd I don’t need anyone’s validation to feel worthy, I don’t need anyone to tell me that if I’m not feeling that from within I just want my life to end.
Mystic_Sophie (24 days ago)
I have depression because of my parents, they always get mad for a single thing! I only used the ink once for my slime I didn't even wasted it they hated me they never cared about me there acting to be nice! They don't even care if im posting depression things About me all they say that I'm over reacting theh never undestand me just thabk god my friends r here i just want to be in school forever i dont want to go home i wish my parents were nice as yours :((i just want to die i cant take this kind of family anymore i just want nice parents thats all i want!!!
Jubilee Tompkins (25 days ago)
MASK I hide behind a mask all day They ask if I’m good I say I’m fine I drown myself in schoolwork, and sad music tuning out the outside world I ask myself “why am I here? I just don’t belong!” My anxiety lowers my self esteem My anti-social ness gets the best of me My depression stabs me in the back I continue lying saying that I’m fine They believe me and I put my mask back on As long as they’re happy I’ll play pretend And continue wearing my mask and making them happy Keeping my mind focused more on them instead of me I’ll keep my mask on forever
aluua (25 days ago)
I told one girl about my depression reluctantly. One of my best friends. She ignored it. Said nothing and did nothing. This is why nobody knows how much of a fucking screw up I am. I caused myself so much harm I became a masochist. God, I cant wait until I die. Isnt it funny? I try to save others when I cant even save myself. Lily... Eden... Chloe... Sreylak... You all are so close yet so far away from me...
Suzanna Levengood (25 days ago)
We wear the mask that grins and lies, It hides out cheeks and shades our eyes, This debt we pain to human guile; With torn and bleeding hearts we smile, And mouth with myriad subtleties........ It continues but it took touch time. Don't give the credit...I didn't come up with it.
JA Luxx (26 days ago)
I wish there are emotional hotlines here in my country that is really concern and willing to listen. Like when you have anxiety attack, you can dial the number then burst your heart out. Someone who will really listen. Like an organization that will help poor depressed people. Its hard to be depressed and it's harder because you are poor. A stranger on the other side of the phone that won't judge you. Sometimes its better if you are opening up to a stranger (idk maybe only me) but i really hope there is an organization that have a hotline for us.
JA Luxx (26 days ago)
If Im still alive 10 years from now, Ill make one because I know how it feels like. Ill pray and do my best to earn. Hope every depressed people see some light and hold on because I know you will and I believe in you
JA Luxx (26 days ago)
Yes i have friends but most of the time, they don't understand 😞
AReel TrebleMaker (27 days ago)
This is the first video to ever make me cry... thank you. This video is so relatable and I just couldn’t stop thinking of every situation that made me feel this way. I’ve been so low lately and no one seems to care anymore. Everything I have loved has drifted away and I don’t know what to do. It just feels like the world has pushed me down so many times, waiting for me to stay down, but I still get up. And get up. And I keep pushing everyday, but I’m not sure how many more times I can get up
Fantasy Dreamer (28 days ago)
I remember I used to always dismiss the thought of having depression since i lived a good healthy life good family a nice house plenty money parents that will give me anything to make me happy. I believed I had too good of a life to say I’m depressed I thought it made me sound selfish or spoilt. Their are so many people who don’t have the great life I do so why should I say I have depression when I don’t suffer like they do, I should be happy right?
DowzerWTP72 (28 days ago)
"The minute you turn from that conversation, you can feel your body drop". Ouch. Yeah I can totally relate to this. I'm just stuck in my bed and I've been trying to find motivation to go to a social event this evening that I've been invited to, and I just can't find the strength. I wish I could, but I feel so out of control that it seems pointless to try.
Hayden Lummus (29 days ago)
I haven't been living for a long time. It just feels more like I'm struggling just to survive each day, to the point where the days just start blending together. And each day I'm constantly asking myself what the point is anymore. And I used to be able to answer that...but lately...I have no answer.
Stephen McNally (30 days ago)
I can completely relate to this. Day after day, I don't feel right but I work through it on auto pilot. Terrible illness.
kwstas ber (30 days ago)
I was so depressed that i start to show no feelings to others, that made me a robot. At that time my life was good i had my family my friends a very hot girlfriend for 6 years relationship bat i was feeling empty inside. Becose of not showing my feelings and beeing cold to everyone i lost my girlfriend i couldnt sleep i couldnt eat i couldnt do anything then after some weeks my dad got sick from canser and i had to watch him every day die in a bed and me standing there and not be able to do anything about it. At that time my grandmother died i was alone with no friends and i was all day out of home becose i couldnt stand the situation there, so my brother my sister and my mother was yelling at me becose i dindt help my father... i couldnt i was broken i was just trying to stay alive every day bat they didnt know becose i didnt talk. After a while my father died. I was at zero.. i was at the worst point of my life alone depressed i lost 50 pounds in 2 months. Bat i got better i came through all the pain and now 2 years later i am stronger than ever. Thats my story and is real, in 3 months i lost so mutch that i didnt apreciate anything and thats the point apreciate what you have becose you never know what will hapend tomorow, speek, show youre true filings and be kind, set new goals workout and happiness will come. Sorry for bad english i just wanted to tell you my story. Have a nice day :)
s0larium (1 month ago)
i don’t know if i have depression but i relate to the video.
Alice And Co. (1 month ago)
here's my story. i still suffer btw and im trying to work thru it. its started last year, in grade 6. me and my "best friend" were getting closer that year. then there was a time when she was "joking" about my wieght and how fat i am. i was pretty sad, and during the exams the next, my grades suddenly dropped. it was because of my "friend's" comments, not only did she call me fat, she made fun of my name and even called me a nerd. i gradually became more and more depressed, callinng myself a fat idiot, worthless and all those things. this year became much worse. i started having suicidal thoughts, and my depression got way worse. to the point where i cry myself to sleep every single night. the thing is: depression is like a hole, once you fall, you can never get out, each minute getting deeper and deeper. everyone thought i was fine. even my parents. my parents dont know, and im not planning to tell them. they all cant take me seriously. they dont believe. because all this time, ive been playing pretend. putting on a social mask for the sake of others. they all thought i seem fine. seemed. im still waiting for my hole to end. but i know ive already rock bottom. so its gonna take a long time to find my end. wish me luck. ❤❤❤❤
epicbobman_12 (10 days ago)
Lonley Polysexual (1 month ago)
What who's cutting onions 😭
Faraaz Aleem (1 month ago)
Life is beautiful don't give up.
cmm vj (1 month ago)
so accurate and I cut , makes it worse when your in a terrible relationship it kills me even more as I cry without anybody hearing it in bed and I smile but when I walk away I feel my heart shattering . I been dying inside since I was a kid now I’m 19 still not happy and basically alone
•Anna_ •Broken (1 month ago)
I wanted to cut while watching this video..
Nayan Mule (1 month ago)
Sensitive and Emotional people do suffer from depression
catherine lopez (1 month ago)
Just watching this is so sad. Just want too give everyone a hug who suffers this awful illness. The Lord is always with everyone . Love and prayers too everyone watching this xxxxxxxx
rosato (1 month ago)
I dont have any mental illness. but I have the same feeling precisely. Because of the mistake I did . and still haunting me everyday.
Xsxl (1 month ago)
Well this is my story: I have depression, anxiety and mental breakdowns for over a year now. I have no one in my life. I‘m always second choice and even my mother likes my sister more (she literally hates me). My teachers and my classmates hates me too and I can’t do anything right. I‘m literally too dumb. I lost the fight with my inner demons 6 months ago and I only „live“ because I‘m too dumb and scared to end it. Well I‘m living my last moments right now.. When I need to wake up for school, I literally want to die. I‘m so scared because of school and bc of my anxiety, I have a lot of physical pain (chest, head, stomach..). I had 13 mental breakdowns this year.. today is the 14th January. Why can’t I die??
Anabbell TV (1 month ago)
*I never Want to get up from the bed at morning because it feels like the day is going to go wrong.*
Cult (1 month ago)
This girl is beautiful
KNZERO GAMING (1 month ago)
this was really really well made good work
Rachel Ngatia (1 month ago)
Well, last year was so hard for me finished my attachment on April 21 began on Feb May I began searching for a job one I remember I got late by like 15mins we were soo many over 3,000 so yeah it was 50/50 chance of getting a job another my uncle tried to get one for me they said they called me I wasn't reachable yet I got the call the next day which was the interview day so I missed the chance but I still was searching for a job online in short I still haven't got one I now want to start my own channel&food blog in future have my own makeup line,fashion line& hotel/restaraunt I also had one bad dream last year but went through depression too and the thought of killing myself got through me 3times every time I was in my room, the pressure of gaining weight too is all around me from friends,my dad,sisters,mum's friends I even think I will just buy some pills to help me eat more&gain weight truth is:we all gave stress,challenges,ups and downs go through hard and good days but it all depends on how we take it, just breath and start again ,cry if you want to it helps this yr 2019 I want to achieve things too I know I can but we all have days when you doubt yourself so I try a lot and may God help us all and bless you all
Twisha Shah (1 month ago)
This is egsacly how I feel

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