I usually talk about beauty and fashion on this channel. Which are obviously topics and things that I love. However, recently I have really been thinking. For a while now, I have not been proud of the content I have been posting on social media. Social media has become an outlet for people to broadcast their "perfect" life. I know, I am completely guilty of this as well. But through this video, I want to show something real for once. Its not all about cute sweaters or urban decay makeup. Depression is real. I am so so proud of how this turned out. I hope I was able to help at least one person out there. You are enough and you are not alone.
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WARNING: If you are easily triggered, do not watch this. There is no harmful content. Just a girl, going through her day. If you are struggling, please call the suicide-prevention hotline! 1-800-273-8255. This video is to solely create awareness for suicide-prevention month
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I once pass through it ,however seeking God and having purpose is what truly drives me ,in this life you might have tribulations but remember that when the night is at its darkest it's because soon the sun will raise .
Continuous academic failure despite being a bright student has got me hard, I don't even how past 2 years have passed, the only good memory I have is when I topped in my secondary school(10th) final exams after graduating I took science in higher secondary,everyone had high expectations from me and the decision was my own, I like science I still do but it's like the spirit is lost, the rat race to get good rank and grades has destroyed my eagerness and curiosity,schools don't promote learning but race, and no matter what you have to win,even if it takes toll on your health both mental and physical.I am still hanging in here, hoping for the best.
It's been 5 mouths now, my life sucks.
My doctor give me Benzodiazepine etc etc it can't help either.
My best friend said that come on Steve you can be better than this, read the bible and go to church.
And yet it doesn't work for me, wtf is wrong with me? Why me?
I'm tired of it seriously, should I die?
When people pretend for attention that they have anxiety or depression, its almost afensive bc there r people out there diagnosed or suffering from depression or anxiety disorders and knowing that some r just faking it, hurts.
This explains me so well I'm going through it all day all night I need help but no one can hear it I try to act fine but then comes night and then I feel like everyone hates me my mom my dad my friends so I cry for like 20 minutes and it never helps so I cut my self over and over and over so I curl up in a ball and cr and cry...
I'm in middle school and im an 7th grader and sometimes when I'm sad and shy I don't just feel miserable and careless
I suck it up and when I have sad thoughts the next I try to forget about those thoughts and move on.
Sometimes in life you have forget about the bad things that happened too you and move forward.
1:24 press the premium or high octane and hit the gas everything will fine except this is not very civilized way to relieve your self out of stress.
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’
Nice Short Story, Let me quote you one you might like,
There was a woman who went to a hospital for routine checkup of a swallowing portion like pimple so she had few tests,
Afterwards doctor asked her that report says she has cancer and won't live any longer then two months and prescribed her to get hospitalized although it was impossible to treat her through medicine by physician and it was too late to go for the surgery.
So She Decided to go home instead, and go to her room lock the door after a while when she got so worried and stressed she started rubbing her wound and start saying O God Help Me , O God Help me and most of her time she started doing this way ,
Two months later a friend of her knocked her door and she opened the door and her friend asked her i came to see you but you are looking fine when youve treated your surgery, she got surprised looked in the mirror and there was no clot.
So she pick the reports and went to the Doctor and Doc said who did your surgery she said no one so the take her tests again and doctor said there was no chance in that please let me know what you did, and she told him that she just rubbed that clot and said O God Help Me. And he did help her,
Do keep in touch with your friends and family. May God Be With You.
Assalam o Alikum
This was dead on I'm just tried of being alone I just want someone to love been so unhappy for years im starting to think this is all there is and just end it cause when I do come out people don't take it serious
I have depression....I didn't think I would, but I do. My brother gets mad at me whenever I start talking about depression so I can't tell my family. I don't want to be treated any different and I don't want them to worry. I feel like I'm just like mist. I don't recognize myself and my name means nothing to me and it's just.... terrible.
I have really bad depression and got out of inpatient yesterday after 8 days stay with still feeling suicidal. Now, after just day, my parents are driving me crazy because they don't know how depression and feels like and they are about to send me back to hospital that I got out yesterday. I don't know why single people in the world doesn't understand me at all.
I just feel that the reasons I'm depressed are stupid and that's why I can't talk to anyone about it, I feel like nobody is going to understand. I once told my parents and they told me it's just because you're a teen and they didn't really seem to care, I really want to know if I'm depressed or not but I can't, even if I went to a therapist I will feel stupid because the reasons wouldn't be that much of a problem I guess and nobody will take it seriously 💔💔
I have depression. I have like 4 friends that I know basically what I’m going through and it took a bit of explaining for them to actually believe me. Apparently I’m so good at pretending to be happy that no one noticed when I stopped actually being happy. Even the closest friends I have didn’t believe me until they saw my scars. Until I told them everything. I tried to explain but I realized they didn’t fully understand and that they were going through their own issues. So I just don’t talk about myself. It’s better to act like you’re ok than to try to explain it to someone who doesn’t understand and put more pressure in their lives. If you feel like this too, you should talk to a counselor or therapist or just someone who you know will take the time to listen. Preferably someone trained for that stuff. It helps.
This one is so accurate. I’ve watched several depression short films and all of them seem to be situational depression like being bullied at school and then trying to commit suicide. Im not remotely an expert but I think this is just clinical depression, as a mental illness rather than being situational. This is definitely more accurate in terms of my own life.
I used to be so happy and I don’t know what happened. My living situation got worse and I felt like no one ever wanted to hung out with me because I can’t think of the last time someone wanted to. I lost my closest friends, A few family members pasts. And honestly I just feel so lonely. Sometimes I think about death but never attempted. if anyone has a website for me to seek help, please tell me. I’d appreciate it.
Don't kill yourself. Jesus loves you and he has a meaning for your life. He is always by your side and wants to take all your burdens off of you... just ask him for help and he will help you for sure. 100%
Jesus says in Matthew 11:28
''Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.''
and in John 10:10 ''The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.''
Don't let your life be stolen from the darkness that surrounds you. Don't listen to the lies of the devil. Because: ''He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him.'' (John 8:44)
But Jesus is the light of life and the truth :)
''Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” (John 8:12)
The darkness will vanish if you ask Jesus for help. Because in Jesus is no darkness at all, only light, the truth, peace and love. He will fight all your battles for you, because he loves you so, so much. Please don't harm yourself. Your life matters a lot.
I am lying to my parents that I am sick so I don't have to go to school..Well I am-mentally and I am scared to tell them so I'll go so far that yesterday I drank a pill for pain, even if I was completely fine ://
P.s. my english is bad sorry
YouTube was, and still is my turning point to how I feel inside... all the mistakes. I wear black, and I'm annoyed that all these girls are DEPRESSED but when I got depressed I was wearing Black and I listened to things that make me more sad like this. me sitting alone thinking about how shitty life is, then taking off the headphones and seeing how boring it is too.
I have depression and I'm only 11 and sometimes I cry myself to sleep and I even started cutting then my parents found out and sent me to a mental hospital the a couple of months later (right now) I'm back in the mental hospital for the same exact reason and depression sucks and it doesn't help that there are people that don't care at all (my ex) and it just makes it worse but I just trying and fighting my depression and talking to my friends about it so for everyone else just keep fighting it will get better soon I'm still fighting
People at my school make fun of me because they don’t know what its like they just assume ,,oh her crush didn’t text her back or whatever😂” because thats how my classmates feel when they “say they have depression” and nobody at our school is talking depression seriously
Im only 11 but I have depression everyone thinks I'm ok. I hurt myself. "I'm fine" I say everyday. Everytime I talk to people I put a big smile on my face but I leave and cry. I cry and cry and cry. I get caught crying and say "I watched something sad" or " I stubbed my toe" I don't wanna live in pain anymore. My wrist is in pain from cutting.
dafuq i have depression (doctor proved) and actual this is a little bit dramatic.Yeah it's like kinda that but i can be happy someday too.I am not afraid or even scard of the question "how are you?" like i can lie but i can also say the truth that i feel today good.It's just cringe for me...
My depression story....I’m insecure about everything, low body image, I overthink everything, I feel worthless, I’m insecure about my future, I’m very open minded and because of that I get misunderstood most of the time, I don’t even know who I am anymore.....
This is just a vague description of what my depression feels like....I don’t seek for help because, no one pays attention to mental health in my country, I don’t want anyone to belittle my feelings or make my feelings look invalid, I don’t want anyone to use my feelings against me, I don’t want to be vulnerable, I don’t want to be a burden to anyone and I don’t want pity from anyone.....also I know whatever I need to know about not feeling worthless blah blah blah....andd I don’t need anyone’s validation to feel worthy, I don’t need anyone to tell me that if I’m not feeling that from within
I just want my life to end.
I have depression because of my parents, they always get mad for a single thing! I only used the ink once for my slime I didn't even wasted it they hated me they never cared about me there acting to be nice! They don't even care if im posting depression things About me all they say that I'm over reacting theh never undestand me just thabk god my friends r here i just want to be in school forever i dont want to go home i wish my parents were nice as yours :((i just want to die i cant take this kind of family anymore i just want nice parents thats all i want!!!
I hide behind a mask all day
They ask if I’m good
I say I’m fine
I drown myself in schoolwork, and sad music tuning out the outside world
I ask myself “why am I here? I just don’t belong!”
My anxiety lowers my self esteem
My anti-social ness gets the best of me
My depression stabs me in the back
I continue lying saying that I’m fine
They believe me and I put my mask back on
As long as they’re happy I’ll play pretend
And continue wearing my mask and making them happy
Keeping my mind focused more on them instead of me
I’ll keep my mask on forever
I told one girl about my depression reluctantly. One of my best friends. She ignored it. Said nothing and did nothing. This is why nobody knows how much of a fucking screw up I am. I caused myself so much harm I became a masochist. God, I cant wait until I die. Isnt it funny? I try to save others when I cant even save myself. Lily... Eden... Chloe... Sreylak... You all are so close yet so far away from me...
We wear the mask that grins and lies,
It hides out cheeks and shades our eyes,
This debt we pain to human guile;
With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,
And mouth with myriad subtleties........
It continues but it took touch time.
Don't give the credit...I didn't come up with it.
I wish there are emotional hotlines here in my country that is really concern and willing to listen. Like when you have anxiety attack, you can dial the number then burst your heart out. Someone who will really listen. Like an organization that will help poor depressed people. Its hard to be depressed and it's harder because you are poor. A stranger on the other side of the phone that won't judge you. Sometimes its better if you are opening up to a stranger (idk maybe only me) but i really hope there is an organization that have a hotline for us.
If Im still alive 10 years from now, Ill make one because I know how it feels like. Ill pray and do my best to earn. Hope every depressed people see some light and hold on because I know you will and I believe in you
This is the first video to ever make me cry... thank you. This video is so relatable and I just couldn’t stop thinking of every situation that made me feel this way. I’ve been so low lately and no one seems to care anymore. Everything I have loved has drifted away and I don’t know what to do. It just feels like the world has pushed me down so many times, waiting for me to stay down, but I still get up. And get up. And I keep pushing everyday, but I’m not sure how many more times I can get up
I remember I used to always dismiss the thought of having depression since i lived a good healthy life good family a nice house plenty money parents that will give me anything to make me happy. I believed I had too good of a life to say I’m depressed I thought it made me sound selfish or spoilt. Their are so many people who don’t have the great life I do so why should I say I have depression when I don’t suffer like they do, I should be happy right?
"The minute you turn from that conversation, you can feel your body drop". Ouch. Yeah I can totally relate to this. I'm just stuck in my bed and I've been trying to find motivation to go to a social event this evening that I've been invited to, and I just can't find the strength. I wish I could, but I feel so out of control that it seems pointless to try.
I haven't been living for a long time. It just feels more like I'm struggling just to survive each day, to the point where the days just start blending together. And each day I'm constantly asking myself what the point is anymore. And I used to be able to answer that...but lately...I have no answer.
I was so depressed that i start to show no feelings to others, that made me a robot. At that time my life was good i had my family my friends a very hot girlfriend for 6 years relationship bat i was feeling empty inside. Becose of not showing my feelings and beeing cold to everyone i lost my girlfriend i couldnt sleep i couldnt eat i couldnt do anything then after some weeks my dad got sick from canser and i had to watch him every day die in a bed and me standing there and not be able to do anything about it. At that time my grandmother died i was alone with no friends and i was all day out of home becose i couldnt stand the situation there, so my brother my sister and my mother was yelling at me becose i dindt help my father... i couldnt i was broken i was just trying to stay alive every day bat they didnt know becose i didnt talk. After a while my father died. I was at zero.. i was at the worst point of my life alone depressed i lost 50 pounds in 2 months. Bat i got better i came through all the pain and now 2 years later i am stronger than ever. Thats my story and is real, in 3 months i lost so mutch that i didnt apreciate anything and thats the point apreciate what you have becose you never know what will hapend tomorow, speek, show youre true filings and be kind, set new goals workout and happiness will come.
Sorry for bad english i just wanted to tell you my story. Have a nice day :)
here's my story. i still suffer btw and im trying to work thru it.
its started last year, in grade 6. me and my "best friend" were getting closer that year. then there was a time when she was "joking" about my wieght and how fat i am. i was pretty sad, and during the exams the next, my grades suddenly dropped. it was because of my "friend's" comments, not only did she call me fat, she made fun of my name and even called me a nerd. i gradually became more and more depressed, callinng myself a fat idiot, worthless and all those things. this year became much worse. i started having suicidal thoughts, and my depression got way worse. to the point where i cry myself to sleep every single night. the thing is: depression is like a hole, once you fall, you can never get out, each minute getting deeper and deeper. everyone thought i was fine. even my parents. my parents dont know, and im not planning to tell them. they all cant take me seriously. they dont believe. because all this time, ive been playing pretend. putting on a social mask for the sake of others. they all thought i seem fine. seemed. im still waiting for my hole to end. but i know ive already rock bottom. so its gonna take a long time to find my end.
wish me luck. ❤❤❤❤
so accurate and I cut , makes it worse when your in a terrible relationship it kills me even more as I cry without anybody hearing it in bed and I smile but when I walk away I feel my heart shattering .
I been dying inside since I was a kid now I’m 19 still not happy and basically alone
Well this is my story:
I have depression, anxiety and mental breakdowns for over a year now. I have no one in my life. I‘m always second choice and even my mother likes my sister more (she literally hates me). My teachers and my classmates hates me too and I can’t do anything right. I‘m literally too dumb. I lost the fight with my inner demons 6 months ago and I only „live“ because I‘m too dumb and scared to end it. Well I‘m living my last moments right now..
When I need to wake up for school, I literally want to die. I‘m so scared because of school and bc of my anxiety, I have a lot of physical pain (chest, head, stomach..).
I had 13 mental breakdowns this year.. today is the 14th January. Why can’t I die??
Well, last year was so hard for me finished my attachment on April 21 began on Feb May I began searching for a job one I remember I got late by like 15mins we were soo many over 3,000 so yeah it was 50/50 chance of getting a job
another my uncle tried to get one for me they said they called me I wasn't reachable yet I got the call the next day which was the interview day so I missed the chance but I still was searching for a job online in short I still haven't got one I now want to start my own channel&food blog in future have my own makeup line,fashion line& hotel/restaraunt I also had one bad dream last year but went through depression too and the thought of killing myself got through me 3times every time I was in my room, the pressure of gaining weight too is all around me from friends,my dad,sisters,mum's friends I even think I will just buy some pills to help me eat more&gain weight
truth is:we all gave stress,challenges,ups and downs go through hard and good days but it all depends on how we take it, just breath and start again ,cry if you want to it helps this yr 2019 I want to achieve things too I know I can but we all have days when you doubt yourself so I try a lot and may God help us all and bless you all
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